The Wonders of Imagination
Posted in Depth, Journal, Philosophy on 12/02/2007 03:44 pm by Cerapter
Yesterday I refurnished my room. The practical reason was so there’d be better room for my christmas tree. But the true motivation for doing it was so the room would look and feel different. And it worked extremely well! The change in lighting (now from my christmas tree) gives the room an all-new atmosphere.
Despite that and the fact that is was December 1st, though, yesterday was a bad day. I can tell the bad ones from the good ones from the very moment I wake up; on the bad ones that moment is typically two hours after I wanted to wake up, and also two hours before I manage to get out of bed. Also it’s always cloudy and gray outside. I can still feel good on a bad day, through effort, using music, movies and art. But if I venture outside I will risk interacting with other people in a manner that might make me feel at a lack of social abilities, and I might lose whatever good mood I have in the blink of an eye and exchange it with grinding anxiety. So on bad days I tend to stay at home.
Today was another bad day, with a sky covered by homogenous rainclouds. Yet it’s been quite a special day, too. Even though nothing happened. Here’s how it went:
When your mind changes, you move across that internal timeline. That’s how I define it. And it’s quite the opposite of the regular timeline in that it’s shortest where the regular is longest. Think about it. When you grow up, your minds develops though many stages, until you’re grown up and have about three times your age left to live. Yet, in those 3/4 of your life, your given purpose is doing the very same thing, based on the very same mind, possibly not ever changing again. So you might’ve reached the end of your mind’s timeline even before the age of 20.